"...because my life is not my own..."

Today was a rather momentous day in my life...After paying exactly 87 cents, I placed my heart inside a big manila envelope and mailed a stack of papers that have the potential to change my life.
Funny how life works.. Four months ago I had the next year of my life planned out. A new year of school, a new boyfriend, new tryouts for a music team, and new experiences carefully ordered by me. Everything was looking bright, promising, and predictable. Then one day, through one little word, God began shattering through my predictable plans and started awakening a different desire in me.
Arriba! The Spanish word for "upward bound" Arriba is a program sponsored by my school and Baptist Mid-Missions that sends college students to Lima, Peru as short-term missionaries for almost a year. The day I heard the Arriba program presented in chapel was the day that a passion began stirring in my heart. A passion that has been there for a while, but has not always been acknowledged. A passion for people, a passion that desires for others to come to know the Lord; a passion for the Spanish language, a passion to travel, a....
And with that realization, my entirely predictable life began to be turned upside down by a Sovereign, powerful God. So here I find myself, four months later, with no boyfriend, and no music team, but no doubt in my mind that God has been ordering every event along this journey.
I mailed my Arriba application today. With it go the memories of months of prayer, tears, and changes... Is this what God has for the next year of my life? I hope so...but I'm trying not to make plans...I'm simply trying to follow His.